What I am doing you do not understand now but you will understand later.

He came to Simon Peter, who said to him, “Master, are you going to wash my feet?” Jesus answered and said to him, “What I am doing, you do not understand now, but you will understand later.”

That basically sums up our entire relationship with God. Whether it’s not feeling like I see God moving, or I see Him doing something and it doesn’t make any sense considering what’s going on around me. A plan that falls through, getting sick just when you were starting to make progress on goals, a relationship ending, we don’t understand what God is doing and allowing in the moment. And honestly, we might never understand it. Usually there’s a lesson we can look back on, but sometimes that understanding doesn’t come this side of heaven. Don’t let that impact your trust in God.

Ecclesiastes 3: 11-12 “God h

as made everything appropriate to its time, but has put the timeless into their hearts so they cannot find out, from beginning to end, the work which God has done. I recognize that there is nothing better than to rejoice and to do well during life.”

What comes to mind when you read those two verses? What stirs in your heart? To me it speaks of the tension between being created for eternity and living in a finite, fallen world. We were created to live in the Garden, in perfection walking humbly with God. Yet now, we live with the consequences of original sin as well as the consequences of our actual sin. Yes, there’s forgiveness and restoration of relationship with God and the hope of Heaven, yet we still are blessed with the temporal consequences of those sins.

Another idea that comes to mind is that it’s not worth my time and effort to try to understand it. Rather, I ought to make an act of trust in an almighty God I firmly believe has a plan and concern for my life, my heart, my family, and my comings and goings.

“Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God.” ~Corrie ten Boom

I do not know why God does what God does or why he allows what he allows, but I believe it is to bring glory to himself and to draw me closer to Christ’s Sacred Heart.

Lord, I do not know why but I trust and believe in you. I believe, Lord. Help my unbelief. I trust, Lord. Increase my trust. I don’t want you to increase my trust by giving me more uncertain circumstances because I fear my lack of strength and perseverance, but I am choosing to trust you, Lord. Please be near me while I grow in faith, hope, and love. Amen.